Now, that I have achieved a significant milestone in my career, I still am yet to even recieve my full time contract(its all verbal right now). I am still in the probation period, and I am still learning the ropes. In this period, just when i got to know that, okay, i am getting full time offer very soon, i started to feel complacent. I started to feel like, okay, i have achieved something big, and now i can relax a bit. I have started to take things lightly again, as i was doing it before. I am not at all learning from past mistakes.
Being complacent is a dilemma. It feels right in the moment, you need to enjoy the fruits of your reaping, its natural. But it can also be a trap, i can’t define my career by a single achievement. I need to keep pushing myself, keep learning, keep growing. I can’t let this achievement be the end of my journey, it has to be a stepping stone for greater things.
Now comes the moral question: What is end here, there is always a bigger fish in the sea, there is always a higher mountain to climb. At what point do I say, this is the greatest I can achieve, and now is the right time to be complacent?
Another big question is, how do I know, that I am growing, how do I know that I am improving, how do I know that I am learning? I am at that point of life, where neither college or school is gonna give me a grade, or a score, or an achievement title for my work. I am in the real world, where there is no such thing as a report card, or a certificate of achievement. I have to rely on my own judgement, and the feedback of others, to know if I am growing or not.
I don't have an answer to either of these questions honestly. Maybe I never will. But I think the fact that I am asking them is a good sign. If I was truly complacent, I wouldn't even be writing this. So for now, I will better introspect on my feelings of complacency, and try to find a balance between enjoying and striving for more.